Feeling Before My Internship

Basically I've done all my assignments for my 5th semester and only left one presentation which is due next week and one more report to go. Which means I need to start study for my final exam and get ready for my industrial training at mid-December. Geez, time passes so fast without even I realize it and now it has come to the end of my Diploma in this course (Hospitality Management). NOT YET !!! I still have another semester to go for my Entrepreneurship subject and after I submitted my Portfolio of Achievement (Report) only I will graduate. LOL. Maybe I'm too excited to graduate, or maybe not.

It was just yesterday I joined Berjaya University College of Hospitality (April 2010) and had my orientation where I met a lot of new friends and get to know my lecturers. It was just yesterday I took my SPM examination and the nervous feeling of me during my 1st paper (BM) is still there. It was just yesterday I got my SPM results and I was having my chicken pox that time (End up didn't took any photos). Now, I will soon go to my internship at JW Marriott KL (Or maybe InterContinental, formerly known as Nikko Hotel) and my interview will be on this Thursday !!! *gasp*

Many of my friends said that Marriott is quite stressful to work with, plus my personality that not really good in handling stress, to be honest I don't know whether I can handle it or not. However, this is what I choose in the first place, even God and fate also brings me back to Marriott (I was told that they didn't accept any intern student and I applied for InterCon), so I guess this will be a test for me (To see my strength I guess?). Thought of going Singapore (The allowance is so tempting !!!), KLIA, and Genting Highlands, but end up at KL (Not a bad thing right?. Well, just go with the flow and I guess there are no need for me struggle of thinking where to go for my intern anymore. =)

So, wish me luck this Thursday interview and I seriously hope Marriott will accept me as I'm the only one in my batch who applied for Marriott. (Strange huh?) AJA AJA FIGHTING !!!!!

 Jia you ! Ni yi ding ke yi de~

(All the best ! You can do it~)

Fifth semester (That was fast....)

It's been months I didn't update my blog. Well, my 4th semester has ended, not really well. Mostly because of my family problem and sort of relationship as well. College life went well especially in Housekeeping Operations class. Everyone check out the blog created by my classmates, I will continue to update it with information from time to time =)  I also went for my college first prom ever held at Hotel Istana on 8th August 2011. It was my first prom that I went with my beloved boy because my high school prom I went as single status. LOL It was a great night where all of us drank and party so hard !!!

This is the link for the blog anyway - http://magicsweepsu.blogspot.com/

Family problem happen always since few months ago but this is most terrible incident happened not long ago. My so-called "good" daddy make me so angry until I shouted "FUCK MY LIFE" in front of him. He even can say "I can don't want give you allowance if I want to and I help you pay for your laptop is I sympathy at you". I was like WTF ?! You are the one say will pay everything related to my education. Now??? Whatever shit it is, I don't want live in this house anymore. One and the half month later, I will not see your face ever again.

Me and my boy went quite well in college. Unfortunately we argue almost every day during semester break, which was 2 weeks ago. He joined Amway as a direct seller where I hate this kind of job the most. I really can't accept it but if since he is so into it, I have no choice but to support him as his girl. What upset me the most is the moment I needed him the most he was there for me although I asked him so many times to come my house. Well, things passed just let it go. >.<

 To be honest, what I put as my priority now is my studies and internship at the end of this year. It's not that I don't love my boy like last time, is because I realize I have to start to learn to live without him as we cannot see each other often during my internship. When I come back, it is his turn to go training and I can't imagine what would happen to me that time. Dear, I really hope this 5th semester will be our most happy moment together and we get to spend time as much as possible. Hope you can really arrange your time properly, for me. <3

Well, new semester new hope. This will be my last semester before I go for my internship at December. I have to start searching hotels to do my intern, umm.. There was actually a few I have interest for it, anyhow I have to ask my lecturer's opinion before make my decision. Time passes so fast, it is just like yesterday I took my SPM examination and then enter college with the course that I never think I will apply which is Hospitality Management. Now I am going for my training and work after I graduate next year. I guess I have my direction now of which am I going to work in =)

You are my everything...

I never think of falling in love when I first met you
I still remember I met you outside the Lecture Theater
Our first sentence "Hey, I know who you are" "Yeap, that's me"
That's how our story begin.

It started with a cup of bubble tea
Remember I kinda force you to treat me ?
Well, everyone was talking about us that time
Still I doesn't have the feeling on you... Yet.

Remember how you help me install DotA ?
Remember how you teach me patiently ?
Remember we always chat until late night ?
Remember we talk and talk all kind of topic ?
That's where I unconsciously felt in love with you
With my friends support and advice, I believe you like me too.

Things doesn't turn out smoothly
Remember how I express my feeling to you ?
You rejected me, saying nothing but only "We are friends"
Seriously, I was heart broken that time.
I took a lot courage to believe and take the first move, but...

I guess the love cupid is with me sometimes
Eventually you express your feeling to me too
But only after I kinda force (again...)
I'm glad you are with me now, hope it will last forever.

Actually I am still wondering
What if I never post out the status that time ?
What if I never met you before ?
Will we be together ?
Will I ever smile again ?
Am I still under a heart broken situation ?

I glad I met you my dear... I love you... I really do... <3 Please give me a chance to take care of you, I know I still doesn't have the skill to become a girl you wanted, but I promise I'll try my best... To be the one you only love, to be the one you will say to your friends "That's my girl" <3

Goodbye Semester 3

At last I have time to update my blog after inactive for more than 3 months

Yeap, I've ended my semester 3 in college, umm... Successfully? NOT YET !!!
Just one more Ala Carte and Buffet exam and I'll go for a holiday !!!

Semester 3, a short semester and stressful to the max !!!
However I really learn a lot especially in my
Advanced Cuisine and Restaurant Operation class
Our lecturer for both kitchen and service taught us a lot of things
I feel that I have more confidence now serving guest and I'm looking forward to work in F&B area

Below are some dishes I make during my restaurant operation

Mango Bavarin

Gratin Nachos Chips with Spicy Tomato Salsa

Velvet Chocolate Mousse

Unfortunately there will be no more kitchen class starting next semester.
Gonna miss practical class a lot T.T

2011 - A new hope, A new journey

Frankly speaking, I have quite a number of goals to be achieved in 2011. Hmm, let's put it as "hopes", goals is quite a heavy word for me. LOL

1. First and foremost I want to change my "bad words" attitude. No more ma hai, so hai, mother fucker, and whatever you think I can say. Well, at least not to say it in front of my beloved BF because I already promise him ^^

2. Next I really want to study hard for my 3rd semester !!! I wasted my time on 1st and 2nd semester and I'm really regret >.< Must work harder for coming semester until fight until the end !!!

3. Hmm, hope I can get myself an original iPhone earphone since I lost mine T.T Now have to use my mum one but I want to have my own =(

4. After watching K-On !, I feel like learn back my guitar but I do not have that much money. Hope to get a part time job soon and my time table allow me to do so. Desperately need a job to pay my installment for iPhone, laptop, camera and phone bill.

5. I also hope that my mum able to settle her financial problem because I see her really very stress about it. Mummy, I advice you go find a job with stable income, why don't you listen to me ? It's much better than you working in those property company where no basic salary at all. However I do respect your decision, and remember you always have my support ^^

6. Friendship, well to be honest I do not put too much hope from you. Advice, support and even negative comment I gave before, what is your decision I'll respect. I just glad that there will always be two person who support me no matter what happen <3

7. Last but not least, I hope our relationship will last forever. I'm sorry that I'm not a perfect GF to you, but you will always be my number one BF. I'm very thankful that you always forgive me, and I promise you I will try my very best to become better. I love you very much my dear~

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011

2010 has been a year which I will never forget
From heartbreak to college life to family crisis to friends problem
I managed to stand up when I felt down to the deepest hole
I managed to go through two semester in college
I even managed to stay strong after I found out the truth in my family and friends problem

My 18 years old life gave me a lot of bitter sweet memories
I've learned how to get back up once I fall down
I've learned that one should appreciate every moment they had
I've lost my most precious dog and even my grandma
All happen in a blink of eye
Fortunately I have someone to stand by me and support me
I'm glad that I managed to move on every obstacles I faced

Friends
I finally know who is my true friend
Although not every moment we contact and hang out
But they will be there for me whenever I need them
Sometimes the more you know a person, the more you find it hard to share a problem with them
Or should I said you get to know their true attitude

2010 has come to the end now
Everything that passed should let go
Looking back will help sometimes
But moving on is the only way I can learn my mistake
Things happened in 2010 will keep in my heart and remain as memories

OK, enough of sad story LOL
2011 - I wanna get better !!!
First I wanna get rid of my bad words, at least not saying it in front of my bf
Next I wanna study hard and get better result !!! No more last minute study~
Then I pray that everything will be okay for Super Junior, it has been a hard year for them...
Not to forget I have to continue with my diet plan, eat too much during sem break
Oh, hope my mum will find a better job soon with a stable salary
Last but not least hope my relationship with HIM will maintain because I don't want go through heartbreak anymore

Specially dedicated to Park Jungsu

Oppa, please stay strong no matter what happen
I know you are so sad and can't help but to cry
We ELF are upset too, but we don't want to cry
I believe that we are your energy and strength
If we are weak, how about you ?
If we are crying, how about you ?

Winning Disk Daesang is your dream before you enter the army
All I can say is I rather you put the blame of us, ELF
We are the one who not helping much
We are the one who make SuJu didn't win
Please stop crying my dear oppa
Please, I want to see your smile and hear your laugh again

Teukie oppa, let my tears replace yours...
Let my sadness replace yours...
I will give you my smile, my laugh and my strength
Let me take all your tears, sorrow and sadness

Back to where I started

I forgot since when I stop blogging
Things go up and down for the past few months
I managed to get up every time I felt down
I realize that when no one out there reach for you, God is the only one who stand beside you
I realize that people around you are all wearing mask, but only God show His true face
I'm sincerely thank God for helping me again and again

One of the worst thing happened was my dog, Dau Dau passed away
She been living with me 5 years and be there for me when I'm crying
It happened so sudden that today I saw her jumping around and the next day suddenly....
I swear I'll take revenge if I had an opportunity to do that
Until now I still can't forget her face
She must be suffering before she let go her last breath
All I pray for now is she went to a better place and live happily there
Might as well as reborn to a better family or become a better person
I believe I will meet you again someday Dau Dau
No matter you are in human form or animal form

Love hurts and bring sadness...

My heart is in pain
My tears are dropping
I didn't expect something like this happened
Everything goes so well until I opened Facebook and saw your status

I thought I will be nothing
But it hurts more than I expected
Where is your promise ?
Where is your words ?
I trust you even until now
But you lie to me again and again

No one knows how bad am I crying right now
No one understand how hurt and pain my heart is
I can't believe you forget what you said to me all this while
Is not about my choice, is not about my feeling
Is about your promise, your words to me

You "betray" my feeling
You "betray" my love
You "betray" my trust
And I still believe in you
But what do I get in the end ?
You are in a relationship with another girl
While I still standing here waiting for you to come back like an idiot

Hmm... It's been quite a time I didn't upload my blog...
Well, recently nothing much happen...
Just that my feeling to someone had change...
I don't know how to describe but it is a weird feeling...
Guess it is time for me to think properly whether I should continue or let go...

Anyway, college life still goes on...
Everyday enjoy with my two dear, Clarin and Charmaine =)
Hehe, but the distance between me and one people is getting further and further...
As Clarin said, what I said she can't get it, is like both of us can't link like last time...

Oh, I got a new laptop (Lenovo) and a credit card (UOB)... Weeeee~~~~
Every night play with my laptop and left my desktop alone at downstairs... Feel so bad tim >.<
I used my UOB card for 3 times already... Petrol (RM30), dinner (RM95) and textbook (RM70)
Luckily 3 times also not I pay, hahahahaha XD

Well, guess I got to go for now... College close soon and mum is coming...
Will update this boring blog next time =)

SJ is forever

"Whatever they say, whatever I heard, I don't care. 13&ELF"

"There's only 10 members on the stage, but please don't forget that SJ is 1 forever"

"The one who believes us and follow us, hold you album firmly, yell proudly but with a modest heart ! SJ is SJ"

"Many people think that it's the end for us already, but I still believe this is a new start"

Cheras Leisure Mall Boston Restaurant review

This is the 2nd time I went to Boston restaurant at Leisure Mall. All my mood gone because of their service and the food condition.

It started with the food is served at an inappropriate temperature. The rice and the bread that just toasted was cold (I was wondering do they make the food this afternoon or what). My friend ordered a Banana Split and guess what ? The ice cream serve while we eating the main course and by the time we finish our meal, the ice cream already melt. =.=

Next is the their service. My mum asked for a chilli sauce and it took them 15 minutes just to take the sauce for us. When the food is served, there is no cutlery being prepared and they told us there is no more dessert spoon. You guys expect us to eat the ice cream with the big table spoon ?

Not only that, the attitude of the waiters (including the captain) were bad to the maximum. No smiling carved on their face, running in the restaurant as if there is a racing held, and lack of product knowledge.

So in conclusion : If you all ever think of trying this restaurant, do read about my review first before going. Honestly, there is no area I can give positive comment to this restaurant.
Rating : 2 stars

Likes

I have nothing to do now, so I decided to write down some of the Likes which I like in Facebook where it really match myself =)

1) I pretend something doesn't hurt when it really does hurt
2) I hate skinny girls who can't stop complaining that they are fat
3) Texting without looking
4) Unwrapping A Chupa-Chup is one of life's hardest mission
5) Looking at a word so much it starts to look like it is spelled incorrectly
6) Guys have no idea how long something they said can stay in a girl's mind
7) "OMG I want that shirt !!!" Look at the price tag... "Nevermind..."
8) I hate people that walk slowly in front of you in shopping centres
9) I lose my phone... I LOST my phone... I LOST MY PHONE...!!! Found it... =)
10) Funny how we used to be extremely close, and now we're completely stranger
11) I love it when teachers come into class and say : "Please do your own work"
12) When I wake up in the middle of a good dream, I try to finish it myself
13) I love waking up to new texts or missed call !!!
14) No !!! No !!! NO !!! NO !!! *Message sent* "Oh God..."
15) I know you saw me, so why walk past like you didn't ?
16) Sorry, I'm not sure how to keep the conversation going after you said "K"
17) When I was younger, I put my face close to the fan to hear my robot voice
18) "I am so ready for this test !!! Bring it on !!!" Ok, question 1... " What the hell is this ?!?!"
19) When I have to get up early, I regret going to bed so late. I never learn.
20) I hate falling for someone when I know it will never work between us =(
21) I'm not stupid, I know what's going on. You're stupid to think that I didn't notice.
22) My mouth automatically says "SHIT !!!" when something wrong happens.
23) How can you forget someone, who gave you so much to remember.
24) I click every minute on "Home" in Facebook because I don't know what else to do
25) I hate saying "Hi" to people and they don't see you and you feel retarded
26) I feel sad when I see an old person eating/sitting alone =(
27) I love it when a baby holds one of your finger
28) *Siting in class* 1.30pm *Seems like 30 minutes pass* 1.33pm "WHAT ?!"
29) I don't care how old you are, if you don't respect me I'm not respecting you
30) *Take picture* "Yucks I don't look good !!!" *Delete*
31) *In supermarket* "Crap !! Where is my mum ??" *Act cool act cool*
32) I always wonder what I look like from someone else eyes
33) "We really need to hang out" "Yeah we really do" *Never happens*
34) "I said don't tell !!! So how the fuck does everyone know ?!?!?!"
35) No matter how close exams are, we still have time for Facebook !!!
36) "I'm not gonna cry... I'm not gonna cry !!!" "Are you okay ??" "Damn it..." *Tears*
37) "I love you" "Love ya" "Love you" All have different meaning
38) I pretend like I don't see you, but I'm waiting for you to talk to me first
39) *You are in good mood* *One little things happens* BAM !!! *Bad mood*
40) *Studying* Parents don't see *Takes a break* "Why don't I ever see you study ?"
41) *Blanket on* TOO HOT *Blanket off* TOO COLD
42) I've already said "What ?" 3 times, so I'm just going to say "Ohh..."
43) Must... Stop... Becoming... A... Fan... "OMG that's so true" *Become a fan*
44) First day of school : I'm so excited !!! ----- One week later : When is the holiday ?
45) "Dude did the teacher come ?" " Yeah, I saw him this morning" "DAMN IT !!!"
46) I always look at your page because I miss you =(
47) I love days in class when all we do is chill and talk the whole time
48) If the world ends in 2012, I've wasted my whole life in school... Lovely
49) When I was in lower primary, my "karangan" always starts with "Pada Suatu Hari..."
50) In class : Can't seem to be awake ----- Class dismissed : Sudden burst of energy
51) If I could remember school work like I remember lyrics I'd be like genius
52) I hate when people add me and ask "Who are you ?" YOU ADDED ME YOU FOOL !!! " WHO ARE YOU ?!?!?!"
53) One new message from ____ Makes me smile instantly =)
54) I never pick up the house phone but run a mile for the cell phone
55) When we chat, we campur English + Mandarin + English geh XD
56) *Mum : 4 missed call* "Oh man I'm in deep shit"
57) If Pokemon existed, I will skip school and become a Pokemon trainer
58) When people sing happy birthday to me, I don't know where to look !!!
59) "Oohh.. A friend request... WHO THE HELL ARE YOU ?!"
60) Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life =)
61) Every woman deserves a man who looks at her everyday like it's the first time he saw her
62) When we first met I had no idea that you would become so important to me
63) "Team Jacob !!!" "Team Edward !!!" "How about team Get A Life ?"
64) I think I'm afraid of being happy because whenever I get too happy something bad always happen
65) *Getting in the shower* "DAMN I FORGOT MY TOWEL !!!"
66) *1 friend request (250 friends in common)* "I still don't know who are you LOL"

67) After 100 notifications, I can honestly say that I regret liking your status
68) I don't regret the things I've done, I regret the things I didn't do when I have the chance
69) *Putting earphones in my ears* *Turning the volume up and completely drowning out the rest of the world*
70) I get distracted cleaning my room because I find something awesome
71) Words can't hurt you, it only does when the person that saying it meant a lot to you
72) "What's wrong ?" "Long story..." "I got time" When I said long story that means I DON'T WANT TO TELL YOU !!!
73) *Laughing hysterically* *Calms down* "Ooh, that was funny..." *Starts laughing again*
74) Cleaning your room and finding things you never knew you had
75) Anyone can catch your eyes, but it takes someone special to catch your heart
76) Thank you music, for being there when no one else was
77) "Ok seriously, I need to start my homework now... Ooh, a new notification !!!"
78) Giving up doesn't mean you are weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go
79) "Everyone shut the fuck up !!!" *Answer the phone* "Hi mum"
80) Don't walk into my life if you intend to leave me
81) "You sure you got everything ?" "Yep !!" *Leaves* "DAMN I FORGOT SOMETHING !!!"
82) Giving a certain look and your best friend know exactly what you mean
83) I pretend to look around but I was actually looking at you
84) When I was a child I used to say "I don't want to fwen you anymore..." Now I say "FUCK YOU IDIOT"
85) Facebook is one of the best books I have ever come across !!! =)

Ok... The list is longer than I expected XD

Totally randomness

It's been quite a time I didn't update my blog
Well, things went up and down since I enter college
Happy memories, Sad memories, Unforgettable memories
Love, friendship, family, finance, studies

I feel like knocking myself to the wall and forget everything
I don't know how to handle these problems
Although I seem to be happy outside, but I'm dying inside
Somehow something someone which I don't know what and who it is
Makes me able to move on every time I facing an obstacles

I always been thinking what am I doing actually
Why am I here on the Earth
Who am I to the people outside there
I need some space and time to figure these things out
Maybe this is what we call life

...........................

Yeah, here I go...
Burst out for two times two day in a row...
I thought it will be nothing after I came back...
I thought what happened there will only remain there...
But why my heart feel so pain...

I've finally met you today...
I know you saw me too...
But what kind of reaction you gave me ??
Ignoring, Pretending, Acting...
Do you think I'm strong enough to stand this ??
Do you think I can go through this ??

All I hope is that you give me an answer...
Yes or no, that's all I want...
You are tired ??
Please respect ??
Need reputation ??
What the hell ?!?!
I am tired too !!!

You are a guy...
You didn't lose anything...
Me ??
I lost my hope, my courage, my heart...
I lost almost everything...
All because of you...

A Special Thanks to... (Part 5)

This is a special THANK YOU post that dedicated to those who wish me for my 18th birthday :

- Loi JZ
- Cj Wong
- David
- Reitei
- Eu Pheng
- Jackie
- Chris Lim
- Zi Tian
- Fion
- Wennin
- Chris Cheong
- Shi Ying
- Laura
- Xeing
- Jason Chan
- Mun Weng
- CJ Lim
- Mr.Donald
- Ei Lynn
- Kah Yan
- Alex

A Special Thanks to... (Part 4)

This is a special THANK YOU post that dedicated to those who wish me for my 18th birthday :

- Dhien Ai
- Yeen Hoong
- Ning Pei
- Christine Yap
- Khai Ming
- Madelynn
- Hara
- Michelle Wong
- Ken
- Michelle Quek
- Corrine
- Zac
- Clair Hui
- Michelle Teh
- Alvin Ng
- Nadiatul
- Bee Harn
- Renzzi
- Viviene
- Saran
- Yvonne Yap
- Wan Xuan
- Chi Weng
- Roxaz
- Jason Loh
- Saravanan
- Jaslynn
- Caryn
- Joanne Leong
- Sattis

A Special Thanks to... (Part 3)

This is a special THANK YOU post that dedicated to those who wish me for my 18th birthday :

- Miranda
- Carolynn
- Jana
- Steve
- Renee
- Yen Jo
- Simon
- Hui Sien
- Pak Kee
- Sandra
- Cindy
- Matthew
- Nathanael Lim
- Vicky
- Nelly
- Poh Yee
- Kah Sing
- Cheryl
- Lhen
- Yvonne
- Denis
- Siew Han
- Sarah Ng
- Soon Keon
- Yuki Suki Shop
- Yan Teng
- Erin
- Connie
- Tek Chyuan
- Canny

A Special Thanks to... (Part 2)

This is a special THANK YOU post that dedicated to those who wish me for my 18th birthday :

- Goli
- Jo U
-Jarred
- Siew Yen
- Alia
- Sharon
- Aira
- Jia Jun
- Cortes
- Charmaine
- Rebecca
- Foo Hong
- Joanna
- Jeff
- Yoon
- Ace
- Candy
- C-cret
- Karan
- Jo Ann
- Vif
- Loo
- Tzu Yu
- Pui Yan
- Maw
- Joe
- Rajmit
- Patrick
- Joey Tan
- Yumi

A Special Thanks to... (Part 1)

This is a special THANK YOU post that dedicated to those who wish me for my 18th birthday :

- Shaun Oh
- Sabrina Loi
- Ye Young
- Olivia Koh
- Asher
- Rachel Teo
- Charry Lim
- Sok Yeng
- Ruby Ang
- Belle Tan
- Rachel Tan
- Yeng Yeng
- Kit Yann
- Cass Wong
- Windy Pang
- Li Jen
- Chee Ken
- Zhi Xiang
- Mission
- Wai Yan
- Ityra
- Willem Ping Yang
- Song Chee
- Roxanne
- Anoop
- Clarin
- Pui Yee
- Kevin Tham
- Ceng Yew
- Slvina