breaking up

most of the ppl said breaking up is the most painful thing to do. bt i dun think so. wat i think is letting go of some1 that u reali love is the most painful thing. i have 2 let go my most beloved bf. y ? i cant get the correct ans myself too. i cant stand his selfish attitude. i had 2 go his way all the time bt he nvr go my way even once. i always wanted something bt he nvr giv me once. i am very unhappy all this while. bt y am i still love him the most ? y must i cry 4 this kind of person every nite ? i dun understand at all.

things had chng. he is not the same person anymore. he wun hold me tight when i wan let go. bt he promised me that he will nvr ever let me go. bt he now let go of him ? he seem x care at all. my fren told me v r technically over. i was like.. what ? if he wan a break up, y dun he tell me honestly ? y must he act dun care and dun know ? i reali dun understand what he thinking.

i wish he know what i was thinking. i wanted him to hold me tight everytime i wanna go away. i wanted him told me that dun go and dun leave him. he knew wat i wan. bt y he dun wan take action ? he knew i cant let him go bt y yet he wanted 2 hurt me like now ? i am confused. confused that whether he still love me onot. i wish someday i will find the ans.

bt i am glad v still can b fren. i still can go his hse and see him. talk 2 him. i am reali glad. honestly. as long as i can still see him and talk 2 him, i am happy enuf. bt if 1 day he found a new gf and i saw it, how would i react ? how will i feel that time ? i cant imagine. cox i d crying badly right now.

Love

What is love exactly ? A feeling ? Something that is memorable ? Something to cherish ? Or maybe something that can hurt u badly ? I start to think that love is just a temporarily feeling. Nothing will last forever. Someone fall in love because of the opposite sex appearance, personality or maybe family background. But will this feeling last forever ? I'm not sure of it. At the beginning of my love and relationship stage, I always think that eternal love does exist. But as time goes, this thought slowly change deep inside my heart. Your partner might be keep telling you the same answer everytime you ask them "Do you really love me ?". But you don't know what are they thinking exactly deep inside their heart.

I trust my partner 101% at first that he will love me forever. But I get confused as time goes by. His attitude, his way of talking, really makes me go blur. I start wondering is he really love me compared to last time. I know in a relationship trust and honesty is the most important thing to have in order to keep the relationship well. However, after this 4years, it seems like I'm the one who try very hard to maintain this relationship. I start thinking am I still in the right way doing this. Is he worth it for me to change myself ? Is the the one for me ? I don't know. I really don't know the answer.