2011 - A new hope, A new journey

Frankly speaking, I have quite a number of goals to be achieved in 2011. Hmm, let's put it as "hopes", goals is quite a heavy word for me. LOL

1. First and foremost I want to change my "bad words" attitude. No more ma hai, so hai, mother fucker, and whatever you think I can say. Well, at least not to say it in front of my beloved BF because I already promise him ^^

2. Next I really want to study hard for my 3rd semester !!! I wasted my time on 1st and 2nd semester and I'm really regret >.< Must work harder for coming semester until fight until the end !!!

3. Hmm, hope I can get myself an original iPhone earphone since I lost mine T.T Now have to use my mum one but I want to have my own =(

4. After watching K-On !, I feel like learn back my guitar but I do not have that much money. Hope to get a part time job soon and my time table allow me to do so. Desperately need a job to pay my installment for iPhone, laptop, camera and phone bill.

5. I also hope that my mum able to settle her financial problem because I see her really very stress about it. Mummy, I advice you go find a job with stable income, why don't you listen to me ? It's much better than you working in those property company where no basic salary at all. However I do respect your decision, and remember you always have my support ^^

6. Friendship, well to be honest I do not put too much hope from you. Advice, support and even negative comment I gave before, what is your decision I'll respect. I just glad that there will always be two person who support me no matter what happen <3

7. Last but not least, I hope our relationship will last forever. I'm sorry that I'm not a perfect GF to you, but you will always be my number one BF. I'm very thankful that you always forgive me, and I promise you I will try my very best to become better. I love you very much my dear~

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011

2010 has been a year which I will never forget
From heartbreak to college life to family crisis to friends problem
I managed to stand up when I felt down to the deepest hole
I managed to go through two semester in college
I even managed to stay strong after I found out the truth in my family and friends problem

My 18 years old life gave me a lot of bitter sweet memories
I've learned how to get back up once I fall down
I've learned that one should appreciate every moment they had
I've lost my most precious dog and even my grandma
All happen in a blink of eye
Fortunately I have someone to stand by me and support me
I'm glad that I managed to move on every obstacles I faced

Friends
I finally know who is my true friend
Although not every moment we contact and hang out
But they will be there for me whenever I need them
Sometimes the more you know a person, the more you find it hard to share a problem with them
Or should I said you get to know their true attitude

2010 has come to the end now
Everything that passed should let go
Looking back will help sometimes
But moving on is the only way I can learn my mistake
Things happened in 2010 will keep in my heart and remain as memories

OK, enough of sad story LOL
2011 - I wanna get better !!!
First I wanna get rid of my bad words, at least not saying it in front of my bf
Next I wanna study hard and get better result !!! No more last minute study~
Then I pray that everything will be okay for Super Junior, it has been a hard year for them...
Not to forget I have to continue with my diet plan, eat too much during sem break
Oh, hope my mum will find a better job soon with a stable salary
Last but not least hope my relationship with HIM will maintain because I don't want go through heartbreak anymore

Specially dedicated to Park Jungsu

Oppa, please stay strong no matter what happen
I know you are so sad and can't help but to cry
We ELF are upset too, but we don't want to cry
I believe that we are your energy and strength
If we are weak, how about you ?
If we are crying, how about you ?

Winning Disk Daesang is your dream before you enter the army
All I can say is I rather you put the blame of us, ELF
We are the one who not helping much
We are the one who make SuJu didn't win
Please stop crying my dear oppa
Please, I want to see your smile and hear your laugh again

Teukie oppa, let my tears replace yours...
Let my sadness replace yours...
I will give you my smile, my laugh and my strength
Let me take all your tears, sorrow and sadness

Back to where I started

I forgot since when I stop blogging
Things go up and down for the past few months
I managed to get up every time I felt down
I realize that when no one out there reach for you, God is the only one who stand beside you
I realize that people around you are all wearing mask, but only God show His true face
I'm sincerely thank God for helping me again and again

One of the worst thing happened was my dog, Dau Dau passed away
She been living with me 5 years and be there for me when I'm crying
It happened so sudden that today I saw her jumping around and the next day suddenly....
I swear I'll take revenge if I had an opportunity to do that
Until now I still can't forget her face
She must be suffering before she let go her last breath
All I pray for now is she went to a better place and live happily there
Might as well as reborn to a better family or become a better person
I believe I will meet you again someday Dau Dau
No matter you are in human form or animal form