2011 - A new hope, A new journey

Frankly speaking, I have quite a number of goals to be achieved in 2011. Hmm, let's put it as "hopes", goals is quite a heavy word for me. LOL

1. First and foremost I want to change my "bad words" attitude. No more ma hai, so hai, mother fucker, and whatever you think I can say. Well, at least not to say it in front of my beloved BF because I already promise him ^^

2. Next I really want to study hard for my 3rd semester !!! I wasted my time on 1st and 2nd semester and I'm really regret >.< Must work harder for coming semester until fight until the end !!!

3. Hmm, hope I can get myself an original iPhone earphone since I lost mine T.T Now have to use my mum one but I want to have my own =(

4. After watching K-On !, I feel like learn back my guitar but I do not have that much money. Hope to get a part time job soon and my time table allow me to do so. Desperately need a job to pay my installment for iPhone, laptop, camera and phone bill.

5. I also hope that my mum able to settle her financial problem because I see her really very stress about it. Mummy, I advice you go find a job with stable income, why don't you listen to me ? It's much better than you working in those property company where no basic salary at all. However I do respect your decision, and remember you always have my support ^^

6. Friendship, well to be honest I do not put too much hope from you. Advice, support and even negative comment I gave before, what is your decision I'll respect. I just glad that there will always be two person who support me no matter what happen <3

7. Last but not least, I hope our relationship will last forever. I'm sorry that I'm not a perfect GF to you, but you will always be my number one BF. I'm very thankful that you always forgive me, and I promise you I will try my very best to become better. I love you very much my dear~

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011

2010 has been a year which I will never forget
From heartbreak to college life to family crisis to friends problem
I managed to stand up when I felt down to the deepest hole
I managed to go through two semester in college
I even managed to stay strong after I found out the truth in my family and friends problem

My 18 years old life gave me a lot of bitter sweet memories
I've learned how to get back up once I fall down
I've learned that one should appreciate every moment they had
I've lost my most precious dog and even my grandma
All happen in a blink of eye
Fortunately I have someone to stand by me and support me
I'm glad that I managed to move on every obstacles I faced

Friends
I finally know who is my true friend
Although not every moment we contact and hang out
But they will be there for me whenever I need them
Sometimes the more you know a person, the more you find it hard to share a problem with them
Or should I said you get to know their true attitude

2010 has come to the end now
Everything that passed should let go
Looking back will help sometimes
But moving on is the only way I can learn my mistake
Things happened in 2010 will keep in my heart and remain as memories

OK, enough of sad story LOL
2011 - I wanna get better !!!
First I wanna get rid of my bad words, at least not saying it in front of my bf
Next I wanna study hard and get better result !!! No more last minute study~
Then I pray that everything will be okay for Super Junior, it has been a hard year for them...
Not to forget I have to continue with my diet plan, eat too much during sem break
Oh, hope my mum will find a better job soon with a stable salary
Last but not least hope my relationship with HIM will maintain because I don't want go through heartbreak anymore

Specially dedicated to Park Jungsu

Oppa, please stay strong no matter what happen
I know you are so sad and can't help but to cry
We ELF are upset too, but we don't want to cry
I believe that we are your energy and strength
If we are weak, how about you ?
If we are crying, how about you ?

Winning Disk Daesang is your dream before you enter the army
All I can say is I rather you put the blame of us, ELF
We are the one who not helping much
We are the one who make SuJu didn't win
Please stop crying my dear oppa
Please, I want to see your smile and hear your laugh again

Teukie oppa, let my tears replace yours...
Let my sadness replace yours...
I will give you my smile, my laugh and my strength
Let me take all your tears, sorrow and sadness

Back to where I started

I forgot since when I stop blogging
Things go up and down for the past few months
I managed to get up every time I felt down
I realize that when no one out there reach for you, God is the only one who stand beside you
I realize that people around you are all wearing mask, but only God show His true face
I'm sincerely thank God for helping me again and again

One of the worst thing happened was my dog, Dau Dau passed away
She been living with me 5 years and be there for me when I'm crying
It happened so sudden that today I saw her jumping around and the next day suddenly....
I swear I'll take revenge if I had an opportunity to do that
Until now I still can't forget her face
She must be suffering before she let go her last breath
All I pray for now is she went to a better place and live happily there
Might as well as reborn to a better family or become a better person
I believe I will meet you again someday Dau Dau
No matter you are in human form or animal form

Love hurts and bring sadness...

My heart is in pain
My tears are dropping
I didn't expect something like this happened
Everything goes so well until I opened Facebook and saw your status

I thought I will be nothing
But it hurts more than I expected
Where is your promise ?
Where is your words ?
I trust you even until now
But you lie to me again and again

No one knows how bad am I crying right now
No one understand how hurt and pain my heart is
I can't believe you forget what you said to me all this while
Is not about my choice, is not about my feeling
Is about your promise, your words to me

You "betray" my feeling
You "betray" my love
You "betray" my trust
And I still believe in you
But what do I get in the end ?
You are in a relationship with another girl
While I still standing here waiting for you to come back like an idiot

Hmm... It's been quite a time I didn't upload my blog...
Well, recently nothing much happen...
Just that my feeling to someone had change...
I don't know how to describe but it is a weird feeling...
Guess it is time for me to think properly whether I should continue or let go...

Anyway, college life still goes on...
Everyday enjoy with my two dear, Clarin and Charmaine =)
Hehe, but the distance between me and one people is getting further and further...
As Clarin said, what I said she can't get it, is like both of us can't link like last time...

Oh, I got a new laptop (Lenovo) and a credit card (UOB)... Weeeee~~~~
Every night play with my laptop and left my desktop alone at downstairs... Feel so bad tim >.<
I used my UOB card for 3 times already... Petrol (RM30), dinner (RM95) and textbook (RM70)
Luckily 3 times also not I pay, hahahahaha XD

Well, guess I got to go for now... College close soon and mum is coming...
Will update this boring blog next time =)

SJ is forever

"Whatever they say, whatever I heard, I don't care. 13&ELF"

"There's only 10 members on the stage, but please don't forget that SJ is 1 forever"

"The one who believes us and follow us, hold you album firmly, yell proudly but with a modest heart ! SJ is SJ"

"Many people think that it's the end for us already, but I still believe this is a new start"

Cheras Leisure Mall Boston Restaurant review

This is the 2nd time I went to Boston restaurant at Leisure Mall. All my mood gone because of their service and the food condition.

It started with the food is served at an inappropriate temperature. The rice and the bread that just toasted was cold (I was wondering do they make the food this afternoon or what). My friend ordered a Banana Split and guess what ? The ice cream serve while we eating the main course and by the time we finish our meal, the ice cream already melt. =.=

Next is the their service. My mum asked for a chilli sauce and it took them 15 minutes just to take the sauce for us. When the food is served, there is no cutlery being prepared and they told us there is no more dessert spoon. You guys expect us to eat the ice cream with the big table spoon ?

Not only that, the attitude of the waiters (including the captain) were bad to the maximum. No smiling carved on their face, running in the restaurant as if there is a racing held, and lack of product knowledge.

So in conclusion : If you all ever think of trying this restaurant, do read about my review first before going. Honestly, there is no area I can give positive comment to this restaurant.
Rating : 2 stars

Likes

I have nothing to do now, so I decided to write down some of the Likes which I like in Facebook where it really match myself =)

1) I pretend something doesn't hurt when it really does hurt
2) I hate skinny girls who can't stop complaining that they are fat
3) Texting without looking
4) Unwrapping A Chupa-Chup is one of life's hardest mission
5) Looking at a word so much it starts to look like it is spelled incorrectly
6) Guys have no idea how long something they said can stay in a girl's mind
7) "OMG I want that shirt !!!" Look at the price tag... "Nevermind..."
8) I hate people that walk slowly in front of you in shopping centres
9) I lose my phone... I LOST my phone... I LOST MY PHONE...!!! Found it... =)
10) Funny how we used to be extremely close, and now we're completely stranger
11) I love it when teachers come into class and say : "Please do your own work"
12) When I wake up in the middle of a good dream, I try to finish it myself
13) I love waking up to new texts or missed call !!!
14) No !!! No !!! NO !!! NO !!! *Message sent* "Oh God..."
15) I know you saw me, so why walk past like you didn't ?
16) Sorry, I'm not sure how to keep the conversation going after you said "K"
17) When I was younger, I put my face close to the fan to hear my robot voice
18) "I am so ready for this test !!! Bring it on !!!" Ok, question 1... " What the hell is this ?!?!"
19) When I have to get up early, I regret going to bed so late. I never learn.
20) I hate falling for someone when I know it will never work between us =(
21) I'm not stupid, I know what's going on. You're stupid to think that I didn't notice.
22) My mouth automatically says "SHIT !!!" when something wrong happens.
23) How can you forget someone, who gave you so much to remember.
24) I click every minute on "Home" in Facebook because I don't know what else to do
25) I hate saying "Hi" to people and they don't see you and you feel retarded
26) I feel sad when I see an old person eating/sitting alone =(
27) I love it when a baby holds one of your finger
28) *Siting in class* 1.30pm *Seems like 30 minutes pass* 1.33pm "WHAT ?!"
29) I don't care how old you are, if you don't respect me I'm not respecting you
30) *Take picture* "Yucks I don't look good !!!" *Delete*
31) *In supermarket* "Crap !! Where is my mum ??" *Act cool act cool*
32) I always wonder what I look like from someone else eyes
33) "We really need to hang out" "Yeah we really do" *Never happens*
34) "I said don't tell !!! So how the fuck does everyone know ?!?!?!"
35) No matter how close exams are, we still have time for Facebook !!!
36) "I'm not gonna cry... I'm not gonna cry !!!" "Are you okay ??" "Damn it..." *Tears*
37) "I love you" "Love ya" "Love you" All have different meaning
38) I pretend like I don't see you, but I'm waiting for you to talk to me first
39) *You are in good mood* *One little things happens* BAM !!! *Bad mood*
40) *Studying* Parents don't see *Takes a break* "Why don't I ever see you study ?"
41) *Blanket on* TOO HOT *Blanket off* TOO COLD
42) I've already said "What ?" 3 times, so I'm just going to say "Ohh..."
43) Must... Stop... Becoming... A... Fan... "OMG that's so true" *Become a fan*
44) First day of school : I'm so excited !!! ----- One week later : When is the holiday ?
45) "Dude did the teacher come ?" " Yeah, I saw him this morning" "DAMN IT !!!"
46) I always look at your page because I miss you =(
47) I love days in class when all we do is chill and talk the whole time
48) If the world ends in 2012, I've wasted my whole life in school... Lovely
49) When I was in lower primary, my "karangan" always starts with "Pada Suatu Hari..."
50) In class : Can't seem to be awake ----- Class dismissed : Sudden burst of energy
51) If I could remember school work like I remember lyrics I'd be like genius
52) I hate when people add me and ask "Who are you ?" YOU ADDED ME YOU FOOL !!! " WHO ARE YOU ?!?!?!"
53) One new message from ____ Makes me smile instantly =)
54) I never pick up the house phone but run a mile for the cell phone
55) When we chat, we campur English + Mandarin + English geh XD
56) *Mum : 4 missed call* "Oh man I'm in deep shit"
57) If Pokemon existed, I will skip school and become a Pokemon trainer
58) When people sing happy birthday to me, I don't know where to look !!!
59) "Oohh.. A friend request... WHO THE HELL ARE YOU ?!"
60) Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life =)
61) Every woman deserves a man who looks at her everyday like it's the first time he saw her
62) When we first met I had no idea that you would become so important to me
63) "Team Jacob !!!" "Team Edward !!!" "How about team Get A Life ?"
64) I think I'm afraid of being happy because whenever I get too happy something bad always happen
65) *Getting in the shower* "DAMN I FORGOT MY TOWEL !!!"
66) *1 friend request (250 friends in common)* "I still don't know who are you LOL"

67) After 100 notifications, I can honestly say that I regret liking your status
68) I don't regret the things I've done, I regret the things I didn't do when I have the chance
69) *Putting earphones in my ears* *Turning the volume up and completely drowning out the rest of the world*
70) I get distracted cleaning my room because I find something awesome
71) Words can't hurt you, it only does when the person that saying it meant a lot to you
72) "What's wrong ?" "Long story..." "I got time" When I said long story that means I DON'T WANT TO TELL YOU !!!
73) *Laughing hysterically* *Calms down* "Ooh, that was funny..." *Starts laughing again*
74) Cleaning your room and finding things you never knew you had
75) Anyone can catch your eyes, but it takes someone special to catch your heart
76) Thank you music, for being there when no one else was
77) "Ok seriously, I need to start my homework now... Ooh, a new notification !!!"
78) Giving up doesn't mean you are weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go
79) "Everyone shut the fuck up !!!" *Answer the phone* "Hi mum"
80) Don't walk into my life if you intend to leave me
81) "You sure you got everything ?" "Yep !!" *Leaves* "DAMN I FORGOT SOMETHING !!!"
82) Giving a certain look and your best friend know exactly what you mean
83) I pretend to look around but I was actually looking at you
84) When I was a child I used to say "I don't want to fwen you anymore..." Now I say "FUCK YOU IDIOT"
85) Facebook is one of the best books I have ever come across !!! =)

Ok... The list is longer than I expected XD

Totally randomness

It's been quite a time I didn't update my blog
Well, things went up and down since I enter college
Happy memories, Sad memories, Unforgettable memories
Love, friendship, family, finance, studies

I feel like knocking myself to the wall and forget everything
I don't know how to handle these problems
Although I seem to be happy outside, but I'm dying inside
Somehow something someone which I don't know what and who it is
Makes me able to move on every time I facing an obstacles

I always been thinking what am I doing actually
Why am I here on the Earth
Who am I to the people outside there
I need some space and time to figure these things out
Maybe this is what we call life