I live in a deep dark hole that I've fallen into since I was born. I just can feel hate, anger, sorrow and darkness this 18 years. Someone have come to save me and get me out of this hole once, no twice, or maybe more. Unfortunately I not only rejected her help, but accidentally fall deeper into the hole.
Mr.S, you came to me like an angel when I was 14 years old. You gave me light, joy and happiness for four years. How I wish you could be with me forever. Somehow I thought you are the one, you are the hero who will pull me up from the hole and face the world. But why you have to push me deeper into the hole and leave a deep yet painful scar on me before you leave..?
I tried to get up and climb out but I failed. I tried to find light to guide me but all I can see is only a dim light. I waited for you to come once again to at least tell me the reason you leave but you never came. I wanted to get out from this darkness badly, but why do I still here..? I regretted, regretted to trust you.
How I wish I could go out as soon as possible. But all I can do now is walk, until I'm out of energy while searching for the light and someone else to help me erase all the sad memories between me and you.
the truth is: sumtimes the harder u fall the more valuable the lesson is.. this is just 1 small part of ur journey to adulthood.. thr'll b plenty more 2 come.. just stay strong n u'll b alright.. =)
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