breaking up

most of the ppl said breaking up is the most painful thing to do. bt i dun think so. wat i think is letting go of some1 that u reali love is the most painful thing. i have 2 let go my most beloved bf. y ? i cant get the correct ans myself too. i cant stand his selfish attitude. i had 2 go his way all the time bt he nvr go my way even once. i always wanted something bt he nvr giv me once. i am very unhappy all this while. bt y am i still love him the most ? y must i cry 4 this kind of person every nite ? i dun understand at all.

things had chng. he is not the same person anymore. he wun hold me tight when i wan let go. bt he promised me that he will nvr ever let me go. bt he now let go of him ? he seem x care at all. my fren told me v r technically over. i was like.. what ? if he wan a break up, y dun he tell me honestly ? y must he act dun care and dun know ? i reali dun understand what he thinking.

i wish he know what i was thinking. i wanted him to hold me tight everytime i wanna go away. i wanted him told me that dun go and dun leave him. he knew wat i wan. bt y he dun wan take action ? he knew i cant let him go bt y yet he wanted 2 hurt me like now ? i am confused. confused that whether he still love me onot. i wish someday i will find the ans.

bt i am glad v still can b fren. i still can go his hse and see him. talk 2 him. i am reali glad. honestly. as long as i can still see him and talk 2 him, i am happy enuf. bt if 1 day he found a new gf and i saw it, how would i react ? how will i feel that time ? i cant imagine. cox i d crying badly right now.